Monday, February 23, 2015

Monday is a fuck you day,Friday is a fuck yeah and a snow day...well that's just heaven.

Ever notice how most people are all cranky on Monday's? No one wants to start a new work week even if they work the weekends, trust me I know. If you do find that rare anomaly of a person who is excited about Monday it's usual one of three things that is why they are happy.
1. They just got promoted, 2. They just got laid or 3. They have a rare but incurable mental condition known as Angelman syndrome, where the person is constantly happy.
Likely it is the first two that would be the cause but also rare.LOL Mondays just suck it don't they? I mean We have to get up after a long weekend of partying or a restful weekend either way we still have to get up and go out into society and "function". I use that word loosely as I personally do not function until my third cup of coffee.Anyways it's just a huge pain in the ass.

Now Wednesday is a little better but not by much. People are a bit more perkier by now realizing that it's half way through the work week,but still pissy somewhat. I like to also refer to it as "Wine Wednesday" especially if I'm delivery bitch this day. Then all I need is a hot bath and a glass of wine when I get home and everyone stay out of my way! Wednesday is a tease...that is all.

Then we have Friday! Yes, Thank you Jesus we have been waiting all week for this. Friday you sexy bitch how I've missed you! We are all chipper and ready to go grab a drink or dinner and a movie or all of the above. We want to get our date on ,most of us hope to get laid therefore the cheerful demeanor ensues, cause let's face it people, no one wants to screw an angry ass.True Dat true dat.
You get better customer service on Friday as well because everyone is ready for the weekend and they are willing to do more to get you out of their faces so they can get on with their weekend.

Now we have A SNOW DAY! OH HELL YEAH! That's a free day to relax and chill by the fire ,read a book, snuggle, etc... Snow days are awesome especially if they fall on a Monday like today. Then it's heaven, you get to miss Monday Madness and have a three day weekend. I love snowdays and in Texas we don't get many but when we do everyone freaks the hell out. Suddenly no one knows how to drive and the stores are raided the day before in a mad rush to get all they think they need.Despite all that it's still nice to get them, so I say to you. How are you going to spend your snow day? Make it count and enjoy!

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Michael a man that inspired me...

So a few days ago I was delivering and was having a terrible day. I was in a negative space  and all I focused on was the bad, until....
I had a delivery going to a rehab center for a woman there. I walked in and started to approach the nurses station to ask for directions and as I did I saw a man about my age in his 30's badly burned talk to the nurses and cutting up with them. As I drew closer to the man I noticed he was missing his right hand and plenty of scars and burns I would say over ninety percent of his body.I looked up made eye contact with him,smiled and didn't flinch as I knew this would hurt his feelings however hard it may be.When you see something like that it always takes you aback some I don't care who you are. He smiled back with the broadest sweetest grin and said I can take you to her ma'm.

His name is Michael, he has reddish brown hair in patches on his head because of the burns and on his face more burns and patches of beard. As I stated earlier he was missing his right hand among many other things, but his cheerful demeanor didn't waiver despite all this. As we walked he began to tell me his story for no apparent reason and I listened. He said that one hot August day in 2013 he was driving down the road and looked down at his phone to check on a text he received and as he did he ran straight into another car. The people in the other car were unharmed by a miracle,but he was not so lucky. He became trapped in his vehicle and it had caught fire immediately,by the time people got to him to try and pull him out he had burns over ninety percent of his body.

I did not know what to say, this man was so upbeat for what had befallen him and even made a joke about it ruining his hipster beard he was trying to grow. I was laughing and smiling by the time I delivered the flowers and left that place in a better frame of mind because of this awe inspiring individual. Michael went through hell and is stil going through it but remains resilient to what had happened to him. While I bitched and moaned to myself about my day, month, life etc.. he takes it all in stride. He inspired me to let things go a little more, to appreciate my life and realize I am truly blessed,no...WE are. So next time you think you have had a bad hand dealt to you in life I want you to think of Michael and his story and what his life is like now. He will never have a "normal" life or possibly a relationship because of his situation yet he lives on. Appreciate what you have and as for what you don't....well it's just small stuff baby. ;)

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Our Mortality and what we don't understand

I recently had an experience in my life with my biological mother that really hit home for me.She fell a few weeks ago in the tub and here recently again in the hall. While I am driving to the hospital to make sure she's ok it hit me. Mom is getting older and so am I. I deal with death everyday in my line of work and it never really flits through my thoughts about me and my families mortality. I try not to dwell on those things because it would make me a wreck, but driving there it suddenly occurred to me that it's not something anyone can escape and that our time with our parents are precious and few. I've lost my father and step mother in these past years and now my mom and step dad are all Kathy and I  have left as the elder figures, it's scary and sad. I thought I'm aging and so are they and how long before Nicole is driving to see me in the hospital?

I was talking to my bff and she has just lost her dog of 14 years and was very sad, she said her daughter asked her "Mom, why do things die?" It blew my mind as I'm sure it did hers, I mean what the hell do you say to that? Why do things die? "Why do we live?" is another great question. I asked her what did you say to that question and she said that she told her that God had another purpose for them. Good Christian answer, but what if you're not a believer? What is the answer? Is there another plane of existence? Do we turn into butterflies or deer or reincarnate as someone else? We may ask ourselves this question eternally and never have an answer until it is our time. I know we die so that we make room for other people, things, new life, but why live? What gives us life?Are we an experiment?Who knows but I do know that we have a limited amount of time to enjoy this life and we should take advantage of it and cherish it always.

"Tonight grab your loved ones and hold them near,for it is an uncertain future for us my dear.
Cherish them always, they are your light, bid them kisses and sweet dreams tonight." -Michele Jones

Friday, February 13, 2015

Valentine's delivery hell

So today as you know is Friday the 13th and a big day for delivering flowers as tomorrow is February the 14th . So today me and a coworker headed out on delivery and our first stop ...a school.  We pull up to said school and she let's me out in the crosswalk where the cones are in front ,about halfway to the front door I hear a loud speaker (click)" this is the ft worth pd, floral delivery person will you pull up so I can write you a citation? " I slowly turn shaking my head in disbelief. ..this is our first delivery "are you fucking kidding me" Flys out of my mouth.  I look at chris and she is delightfully unaware that he is talking to her and in her own world. I then make frantic hand gestures to wave her over so he can ticket us. I am at this point after delivering flowers, making a mad dash to the van where officer Cruz is talking to her. I run up and jump in the van..(.probably not wise in hind site to run up on a cop) and say oh please officer Cruz don't ticket us we didn't know. Chris was talking to him to and explained she didn't know that we rarely deliver and he let us go with a warning. Bless you officer Cruz.
Our next stop was a house with an address we almost could not locate because it was an apartment behind the house.I knocked first on the next door neighbors where a pimply faced twilight loving teen answers with bed head hair and a red half face in a bad mood and says wrong house and slams the door. I go to the next door after a woman yells "I think that's my moms..she's in the back. I knock and I hear (bark bark bark) only it sounded  more like a mouse on fire than a dog. This old lady opens the door and this white ball of fluff some of you like to call a "poodle" aka furball jumps at me trying to attack my leg. My first instinct is to kick a field goal but instead I turn and the little beasty slides down my leg thanks to polyester blend and she grabs him. She says "oh he won't bite" I beg to differ mam I'm thinking since he just lunged his furry ass at me. She's signs the clipboard and I'm off to deliver more smiles to lazy ass people who should be working like me. So that's how my day started and it only progressed from there. So to you I say "Fuck Valentine's Day" and have a wonderful weekend.

Thursday, February 12, 2015's a bitch...Happy Valentine's Day

So we are all aware that Valentine's day is upon us and with that the pressure of getting the perfect gift if we are taken and if we are not ,we are pressured to find someone. Well love is if anything ...complicated. I don't regret any of my relationships, each one taught me something and each brought me joy at one point. Love is fickle, it can turn on a dime. One minute you can be utterly and hopelessly in love and the next ,crushed, destroyed and vengeful. One person can love you so completely it can make you feel like heaven is here on earth or they can hurt you so badly that you feel you are in hell and pray to make the pain go away. Like they are shoving shards of glass in your heart.

Love is a powerful force, it can move mountains or destroy it all and it all depends on where partially fate and partially life choices take you. I have loved with a love that was beyond reproach and I have hurt like the very demons of hell had clawed at my heart and felt nothing could fix it. It almost makes you not want to fall in love again or at all. Love makes you so vunerable, you set yourself up for possible heartache and that is scary as hell. I could take a thousand needles over the feeling of losing someone I love or being turned away from them. Especially when someone falls in love with two people at once. Yes, it can happen, it does and will continue to do so for the rest of eternity. Those are nasty little triangles, when you don't know what to do, when you love two people or even three. Love has no bounds, no restraints, no choice. It just happens.It is unequivically and utterly hopeless to fight it, I've tried and failed. We cannot control who our heart beats for anymore than we can control the tides. A force to be reckoned with and destructive as a gail wind especially when it has been twisted to hurt.

There is always that boy chases girl, girl chases other boy scenerio in life at one point or another or vice versa. Then there's the we fall madly in love with one and then they use us stomp on our heart by cheating on us or leaving us scenerio. When we give ourselves to love (as if we had a choice) it owns us, body and soul. Fight as you might, it is futile and you my friend are doomed. So this Valentine's Day when you are with your sweetie or not remember one thing, above all LOVE yourself first.To end this blog I would like to end with some of my favorite love qoutes. Happy Valentine's and remeber to love who you're with everyday of the year as if it were Valentine's Day or someone may do it for you.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” 
― Neil GaimanThe Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones

 "Fuck love, crock of shit love, people convince theirselves to painted rock!" - August Osage County

“As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.” 
― John GreenThe Fault in Our Stars
“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.” 
― Sarah DessenThe Truth About Forever

“The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.” 
― Chuck PalahniukInvisible Monsters